Why we always lying like sh*t when we say this? Knowing d*mn well it’s a lot going on right now! Well if you read some of my other post, I kind of talk about why it’s not taught to talk about our feelings. Especially the way I grew up. I was taught our business is our business, and our business shouldn’t be talked about outside our house. So I didn’t. I kept my mouth shut about a lot of things during my early kid days. Then a practice became a habit in which turned into a lifestyle.
So as I gotten older, I pretty much stayed the same. Kept quiet about a lot. Holding my feelings inside. I knew that I didn’t necessarily want to talk to my mother or brother about the things that bothered me. Most likely because, it was usually about them. See it was always easy to talk about issue at school when I came home because that’s home. But, the problem was who do I talk to about the problems I’m having at home when the “rule” is to not speak on our business outside of the house? I was already experiencing trust issues as well. So, of course I followed my mother’s rules and kept quiet about what we discuss in our household. That also included my dad. He didn’t live with us at the time so I couldn’t talk to him about certain things. Even though my dad has always been more understanding of me. I just couldn’t tell him everything because I knew it would piss my mom off and don’t nobody want that smoke....believe me.
But here’s my question, what do you do when you’re put in a situation where you have to trust? Like truuusssssttttttt?! What is that? I don’t know how to do that! I’ve never learned how to trust. Or at least how to trust properly. And I do know now, that it’s better to trust with your brain and not your heart. That was through some tough a** life experiences.
We should teach more about how to trust versus just telling us who to trust.
Because I’ve even learned not to trust the person telling me not to trust other people. Ohhhhh, yeah....let’s talk about it. Cause everybody ain’t yo friend and you can still get used and abused by the closest ones to you. Even at the age of 27, I’m still learning how to trust. It’s definitely a process, but in order to trust, we must open up ourselves. Just be smart about it!
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